There is only the present, I am
told -- this moment.
The past is gone, the future yet to be.
And-- is not the Present wrapped up in the package of the
past and the future? Like the meat of the filling --without the two pieces of
bread—
there is no sandwich, no “meal”.
The current moment must
have a context, or one is like the true amnesiac who lives ONLY in that place
of immediacy, with NO connection to past memories or future aspirations. How can this be anything but life deadening—Soul
killing?
My past experiences, as well as
my future goals and dreams make me who I am in the NOW. The Moment is
meaningless—adrift-- without a landscape to pass through, without a place of
Origin and a Home to head for...
A seed, without the soil from
which to grow and the sun toward which to reach, remains just a dried up bit of unrealized, organic
potential, with only a picture
of what it could be on its package...
AND also true. If I but dig up
the soil and reach for the sun but never break open the package or plant the seed, there can be no
growth no flower
no fruit…
It is, I realize, all about
Balance. And this, for me, is the most difficult place to remain! Balanced in a
position where I
neither live in the Land of Melancholy Rememberings and "One
day…Then" nor in the silent, featureless landscape a context-less Present.
Balance allows for, requires,
using the experiences and lessons of my past, as well as the dreams and goals
for my future, to create a Present
within which I can Live and Grow.
AND
I must be able to do this without attachment to the outcome looking
a particular way, trusting that the Great Sage/Source in the Universe
will
continue to support the process.
AND
Letting Go of Attachment to
Outcome does NOT mean having no feelings or desires -- no
goals or dreams.
AND
Doesn't having aspirations set me
up? What about disappointment?
What if I'm wrong? I guess it goes back to the idea
that life IS about risk.
A quote by
Joseph Chilton Pearce says: "To
truly live a Creative life, one must
LET GO OF THE FEAR OF BEING WRONG."
The Challenge? Holding all of the ANDS Simultaneously!
*Pause*
Sometimes it takes moving to the
hypothetical extremes in order to find my way back to a truth…and this is
certainly not to say I have arrived.
It is a process. And the process
continues!
Blessed Be!
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